Nicely written Jillian. Very moving.
I realised very early that I should focus on the travel experience instead of a travel vlog.
What others do, I may not be able to. What works for others may not in my case.
Besides, I have always believed travel documentaries, or any documentary, should be filmed with a proper crew and planning, and not one or two people holding a camera and making videos. but, this is my thinking.
So after 70 countries, my vlog count is ZERO.
Please read this if you have time. You may find it interesting :)
https://medium.com/better-humans/7-reasons-why-i-do-not-vlog-e1442ee02a6f
Good luck for your future endeavors.